Im amazing just the way I am

Life is filled with so many ups and downs…I never know if I am happy or not. I do know that I want to drop some weight for a wedding in a few weeks and I am simply lacking motivation. I don’t want to completely give up my social life to drop weight but I am. It is so hard to tell my friends no to dining out and watching movies all of the time. I can’t wait until me and my boyfriend move closer to the city so I can get a gym membership..I am going to be hot!

I have been eating quite healthy at work and throughout the day but I find it very hard to curb my late night snack binges. there should not be food ads on late night television!

I am trying to think up a business plan for my own venture to start bringing in some extra cash. I’m thinking of starting a media consulting business. I can develop facebook and twitter accounts as well as web advertising plans for small companies. By doing this I could offer them affordable rates and make some spare change for myself. If anyone has any ideas please let me know. Working at home is truly the only way I think I can be completely happy.

Mission: Successful Weekend

2011 is going great so far, I am eating right, feeling happy, and working out! My first weekend is ahead and I must remember a few things:

• weekends are a break from work not a break from the diet

• weekends are for having fun but discipline is necessary

• to cherish my weekend because it is all too short!

• to stay active even though I want to put my feet up and relax

My goal is to get a least 2 thirty minute workouts in before Monday! I can do it!

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I always wonder why the things that happen to me actually do? I mean I am polite, respectful, kind, loving…and bad things still happen. I easily get frustrated although I shouldn’t this year my number one goal is to take a deep breath and stress less. It’s so easy to become frustrated and say things you wouldn’t normally do, its easy to hurt feelings and most of all it’s easy to say too much.

I’m a talker, I’m sure you’ve noticed as my blog is purely conversational, I am always in trouble for “insert foot in mouth” type situations. I need to realize that I need to say what I want and communicate clearly, and once I have received a message from whom I am communicating with I need to breathe and really take it all in.

My boyfriend and I fight and he always says I don’t listen…the truth is that I do listen, I just have so much to say myself it overrides what others say. 2011- talk less, listen more.

Welcoming 2011 with open arms

Today is day three of my new life. There I have proclaimed it! I have exercised for thirty minutes in a row two days straight and my diet has not included anything fried. I have been good so far but today is the real challenge, my first day back to work. I avoided all of the office sweets: the m&m’s, the cookies, the bagels and cream cheese, the leftover catering, and the snack machine. The true test will be when I get home- trying to find the energy to get on the bike for 30 minutes!

Accountability at its finest

Today has been a healthy day so far but it is when I get home, kick of my shoes, and start relaxing that the munchies kick in. Last night I bought some clearance Halloween candy that definitely wasn’t necessary! This morning for breakfast I made a egg sandwich on a whole wheat bagel with a slice of ff cheese on it! It was delicious. For lunch I had some carrot sticks, apple slices, grapes, about a 1/2 cup of soup (it didn’t taste all that great) and a caffeine free diet coke. I had 1 cup of coffee with half of a splenda packet and 1 cookie.  For dinner I am making grilled chicken breasts with a side salad and some brown rice…now only if I can keep from snacking!

Under construction, a few goals…

This weekend was great- I did a lot of relaxing as my back has been very tight and sore this week. On Halloween I dressed as a construction worker and me and my man had a great time celebrating with a big bucket of goblin brew and jello shots for everyone.  At work on Monday we turned our floor into a Haunted House and the scary stuff continued. Scariest of all…it’s already Tuesday! And November at that!

Goals from now until Christmas

1. eat less, move more.

2. set a positive example as the newest member to the Health and Wellness committee at work.

3. get organized at home and keep it that way.

4. pay off my bills and save 10% for a vacation because I deserve one…hmmm my 2 year anniversary is fast approaching!

5. think more positive and be thankful for every blessing in my life

Prose….Deep Love

I love you so deep in my heart that my words cant even come out right, that my thoughts are blurred and my hands are shaking. I love you so much that I don’t know how to love without you. Your love is more than enough for me, it fills my heart and overflows into my soul. Your love comes pouring out of me like sweet September rain. Your love overwhelms me like cyclonic winds. My heart spins and my smile spreads.

I love you so much it hurts, it hurts to breathe, hurts to think, hurts to love anyone but you. I love you with my whole soul and being, I love you more than I ever imagined I could love. You are my world, my everything, my all. My heart bleeds for you as teardrops fall, hoping that you never have to leave, that I may love this strongly eternally. I love you so deep that my heart may be crushed to a million little pieces if you ever leave. My love is true and deep.

In awe of our love

One day we will get ours. We will rejoice in our love, rejoice in the little things because that’s what matters. We will sing and dance and hug and love openly. We will love with our whole hearts and tie will stand still for an eternity; still in awe of our love.

Emotions of Anger….

I have a hard time with anger. I never know whether to let it all out or leave it bottled up inside. Sometimes my mouth gets the best of me and its too crude for the situation. I like to talk things out when I’m angry that’s just me but I always seem to talk too much and get myself back in more trouble than to begin with. Let’s just say its been a rough morning and I miss my boyfriend. A hug from him is the only thing that could make this better right now.

Big weekend…

This weekend is Olivet College’s Homecoming and I can’t wait. I miss all my Sigma sisters and hopefully we will get a great turn out at the house. I am ready for some Hot Dam and cider I know that. Adelphic will also hopefully have a big turn out and it will be a great time had by all. I will get a lot of physical activity in and I am hoping to simply survive!